Welcome Home Handsome

Welcome Home Handsome


Friday, February 18, 2011

One Day At A Time

A few updates from last time I blogged.

PTSD still rearing it's ugly face.  I feel as though I'm at my breaking point.  I feel like a failure at a wife.  I do not know how to handle it anymore.  I don't know how many more let downs I can take from his doctors.  I don't know how many more times I can get my hopes up, for my husband to finally get proper help, just for the Army doctors to crush them again.  I don't know how much longer I can wait until the Army can be a past tense reference in my life.  I live a nightmare that I do not wish on my worst of enemies.  All I can try to do is lean on God.  Have faith that He will guide me on my darkest of days.  That He will give me the grace that my husband needs in me.  I admit I feel like throwing in the towel most days.  This is rough.  Please pray that someone will help him that he will get on the proper meds as the several he's on now are not helping.

The boys are doing awesome!  Wyatt gets more and more creative every day.  He's SO smart!  CJ's nearing his second birthday, next month.  He's as ornery as ever and a sure handful.  =)

Baby News!  We had an ultrasound earlier this week and found out that we are expecting a baby GIRL!!!!

We could not be any more thrilled!  She sure was stubborn though!  We tried everything we could to get her to do some somersaults to get the umbilical cord to move as it was between her legs the whole time!  I thought for sure we would have to wait to find out what we were having but she finally flashed us for all of about 20 seconds and there it was!  I instantly started bawling.  Part of me just couldn't believe we were finally getting our girl.  Wyatt is beyond excited to have a baby sister.  He talks about her everyday, it's the cutest!  We've decided to name her Allison Rae.  We will call her Allie.  We cannot wait until she makes her debut on August 1st!  <3

I made these this afternoon to go above Allie's crib. <3

As a side hobby I've stated making tutu's and I'm having a blast doing so!!!  I started before I knew for sure I was having a baby girl.  I have a facebook fan page now as well.  Check it out: LaBu's TuTu's.  Between the boys, Nate, the house, and tutu's I'm keeping myself pretty busy and the days seem to be flying by.  I'm looking forward to May when the boys and I will drive up to WA to visit family friends.  Can't wait!  Really wish Nate was going to be able to come with us though...stupid Army!

Well, that's a quick update for now!


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